Less of April...

--> “Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes. Ch-ch-Changes (Turn and face the strange).   Look out you Rock'n' rollers.   Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes.   Ch-ch-Changes (Turn and face the strange) Pretty soon now you're gonna get older.   Time may change me.   But I can't trace time I said that time may change me.   But I can't trace time”. –Changes David Bowie As always I’m thinking about change, thought I’d give a little nod to our dearly departed Bowie.   We’ve lost too many of the good ones this year. Have I said how much weight loss surgery has changed my life?   Let me say it now. Weight loss surgery has changed my life.   No regrets. NONE.   However, it is not an easy road and there are definite pros and cons. I was a big girl.   300lbs big and when I look back on the photos of myself it’s almost shocking to see how big I was.   When people who know me look at photos of me, they always say “I didn’t know you that big”. ...

She's got a smile that it seems to me reminds me of childhood memories. Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky. Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place. And if I stare too long, I'd probably break down and cry. Whoa, oh, oh, sweet child o' mine. Whoa, oh, oh, oh, sweet love of mine. – “Sweet Child of Mine” Guns n’ Roses I've been thinking a lot recently about that fact that I am not a mother. It's got me feeling... A WAY.  It's something that crops up every now and again. This last bout of motherhood on the brain (I think about this a lot) reminded me of something I wrote a while back, but didn’t post. Last year, or ma ybe even the year before, Jennifer Aniston appeared on Carson Daily. During the interview, she discussed how people always want to know when she’s getting married or when she’s having children.   She expressed some frustration that the perception is that her value as a w...

“I'm movin' on , at last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me and I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone. There comes a time in everyone's life when all you can see are the years passing by a nd I have made up my mind that those days are gone”. – “I’m moving on” Rascal Flatts I did it.   After countless starts, stops, fumbles, frustrated moments, times of abject disgust and despair, I finally walked across the stage and received my undergraduate degree in Sociology (Cha-ching! I foresee big bucks in my future).   Although I know it's not a measure of my intelligence, NOT having a degree made me feel inferior and less than.   What’s worse is that people take this condescending tone when they realize that a person of a certain age is working towards their undergraduate degree.   Here’s how the conversation usually goes once they’ve realized I’m “in school”: Random Person:   Oh you’re in school? That’s great! What are you doing? April:...

I'm on the edge of glory and I'm hangin' on a moment of truth. Out on the edge of glory and I'm hangin' on a moment with you. I'm on the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge. I'm on the edge of glory, and I'm hangin' on a moment with you. I'm on the edge with you. – Edge of Glory, Lady Gaga My boyfriend has a 15-year-old daughter.   She really is a good kid. I like her, she likes me and we get along. My relationship with him would NOT be successful if she and I didn’t like each other, so the fact that we get along is a blessing.   Sure, there are few things that concern me; I’ve shared them before. 1.      Her hygiene is disgraceful, truly.   I don’t get it. 2.      She has this weird block on her race. She refuses to identify as a person of color. She’s got a Black dad and a Latina mom.   At MOST she’s is biracial.   At some point these things are going to be issues for...