Less of April...

Day 7 One of the many things that I am going to work on this year is duh, my weight.  While it was tempting, I opted out of Al ’s plan.  Not sure why exactly, I just did.  I enjoy Alan a lot. There’s a lot of charm in his alleged gruffness. Oh, it’s alleged. I don’t think he’s mean. I think he’s fed up with excuses, his own and everyone else’s.  He’s lost a ton of weight—he’s doing something right. Haters will hate and really should fuck off. I toyed with joining WW…AGAIN.  I haven’t yet…I still might.  Something about joining a plan that I have joined at least 10 times in the past, just seemed so cliché to me.  I also am feeling like I don’t want to pay for the plan. I am in a financial cliff of my own lately, and don’t feel like shelling out $40 bucks a month for a plan that I already know works, because I’ve lost and gained about 100lbs following it.   So what have I been doing these past 7 days?   I have been not jus...

Should old acquaintance be forgot, and never brought to mind ? Should old acquaintance be forgot, and old lang syne ? For auld lang syne, my dear , for auld lang syne, we'll take a cup of kindness yet, for auld lang syne. And surely you’ll buy your pint cup  ! and surely I’ll buy mine ! And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet, for auld lang syne. We two have run about the slopes , and picked the daisies fine ;But we’ve wandered many a weary foot , since auld lang syne. We two have paddled in the stream , from morning sun till dine ; But seas between us broad have roared since auld lang syne. And there’s a hand my trusty friend  ! And give us a hand o’ thine! And we’ll take a right good-will draught , for auld lang syne .- Americanized version of Auld Lang Syne I’ve never quite understood what that songs means. I googled of course, and apparently it could mean for the sake of old times. Ok well, since I don’t really know, I’ll just buy...

Thanks to everyone who emailed me to see if I was ok.   I am just fine, but thank you so much for asking. It means a lot.    My fair city, the outer boroughs, and parts of Long Island are not as well.   Sandy came, saw, kicked our ass and left us to pick up the pieces.   I cannot believe what I have seen up close and in person.   Trees, telephone and power poles on houses and cars.   Boats that came up out of the ocean and landed in piles all along the Belt Parkway.   Staten Island and Breezy Point, Queens are heart breaking.   Not to mention Long Island.   This has been a horror show.    No one ever thought this could happen in New York.   We all watched in happened during Hurricane Katrina and thought… “…That’s terrible, I’m so glad that I don’t live in a place where that could happen.” Well, it turns out we do.   Is there anyone who thinks that climate change is not an issue?   Somewhere Al Gore i...

“Don’t think that being fat means you deserve less of anything. For years, I believed that carrying around a few extra pounds meant I wasn’t entitled to fulfilling friendships, romantic love, emotional complexities, or even my own opinion. As a fat girl, I thought I had to settle. I didn’t speak up when I knew the answer in class. I didn’t ask for what I wanted in any area of my life. What a waste. Don’t wait to start your life until you get skinny. Someday you’ll look back on those excuses, whether you’re skinny or not, and realize it wasn’t your weight that held you back, it was cowardice. It makes just as much sense to say, “I’ll apply for my dream job when I lose 10 pounds” as it does to say, “I’ll apply for my dream job when I grow three inches taller.” Stop hiding behind your body. Figure out what you want, and go get it.” - Author unknown I’m not sure where I found this.   I must read it somewhere and printed it out. I rediscovered it recently and when I read this ag...

So I’ve been around, just actually really busy with work and school.   I’m NOT a good multi-tasker.   As far as how I’ve been doing…meh not so good. Not straight up awful, but if I am to be truthful, I have not been nearly as good as I should or could be.   Believe me when I say, I am working on it each and every day.   But I stumble a lot.   I refuse to give up though.   Apparently our good friend and ring leader Allan , proposed an exercise, he called FMT, or Friend making Tuesday. I know its Thursday, but you’ll be ok. Just read along happily.   We’re to post the following questions as well as the answers on our blogs.   This is all in the name of learning more about each other so I am all in.     1) I am how many years old, weigh this much, and aspire to weigh this much.... I’m 40; trust me when I tell you, that I think “40” sounds crazy to me. How am I 40? Shouldn't I feel different? Older more mature? I don't. But yeah, ...