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Bikini Bottom...


For lots of reasons, all of them financial--we decided not to go away this summer. Knowing that we’d have stay local, we opted to get a county beach pass so that we could enjoy what the summer had to offer. I’m glad to say that we’ve been putting good use it, by going to the beach pretty much every weekend. 

Every time I go to the beach I take in the women, all shapes and sizes, wearing 2 piece suits. Good for them—I wish I had had that confidence prior to my WLS. 

Until this past March hadn’t worn a 2 piece since I was 7. I had wanted one so badly and my favorite aunt bought me one. I remember how excited I was to wear it and how my mom ruined it for me. “You can’t wear that—that’s for small girls, you’re much to big for that!” etc.  Even after I lost the majority of my weight, but pre any plastics, she suggested a burkini! She was DEAD serious. “You don’t want to be seen… like THAT”.  That stayed with me forever, I can’t tell you how many years I refused to go to the beach—and when I did I wore shorts and Tee shirts.  What a waste of time.

I have discovered that I can be critical of myself –without self-loathing. Here’s to feeling good in the skin I am currently in—brachioplasty scars, wrinkled AF thighs and not at my optimal weight.  It’s good to be me. 


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